Saturday, September 17, 2011

In Allah's Hands

A friend on Facebook posted this quote today:

"At times you may think everything is going wrong. Yet you don’t realize that Allah is setting everything right." -Naseer

I have to keep this in mind. There are a lot of things right now that seem to be going so wrong in my life. But I must hope and pray that it is Allah's will and He will be leading me to something greater than I can see right now.

I had an argument with my husband and father-in-law over the dishes on Thursday. It wasn't pretty but I stood my ground. My husband sided with my father-in-law...again. It is what it is. However, I have to give my husband some credit for sweeping and mopping the bathroom floor last night. That was a real surprise! But my father-in-law is avoiding me like the plague. After the argument over the phone with him yesterday he took off and didn't get home until 3:00AM. Hearing him come in woke me up and I couldn't do back to sleep because I kept expecting him to come barging into the bedroom wanting to "talk" about it. (Meaning, I expected him to come in yelling about how I'm unreasonable or something like that. He does tend to choose odd hours when he wants to discuss things...like when people are at work or trying to get ready for work or something.) All day today he's been hiding out in his room, which makes it impossible to talk to him about yesterday. Oh well. When he comes out I am ready to talk about the situation.

On a positive note, I have an interview for the Credit Analyst position Monday with my boss at 3:00PM! Please make dua for me that I may get this position! A raise plus the hope of Fridays off...what more could a girl ask for? There is only one other person who applied for the position and she has no experience in the credit department, which gives me an advantage. The job description mentioned that they were looking for a person with one to two years of experience in credit, which I have. We'll see what happens. Just like my home life, my job life is also in Allah's hands. If it is His will that I get this position, He will help it to happen.

The temperature is nice and cool outside today! Fall is coming! Alhamdulillah! I enjoy the cooler weather, but it makes me miss living up north. I know I won't see blankets of snow down here in Georgia like I did when I lived in Fargo. Oh how I miss Fargo! I know...that sounds weird. Do people actually love Fargo, ND? I do. Bring on that cooler weather! I'm ready!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Monday and Progress

Assalamu alaikum, everyone! Today my boss approved my request to apply for the credit analyst position! I honestly do not know who else has applied. One lady I thought was certainly going to apply told me she wasn't interested in the position. I can honestly only think of one other people who might be interested in it. At this point it's a waiting game to see who all applies and how the interviews will go. I am still torn about this. Working in the Credit Department is haram enough and getting promoted in the Credit Department may be worse on the haram scale. Yet, there are benefits...like possibly having Fridays off and a raise to better support my family. Should I take it or not if it's offered? May the will of Allah prevail in this situation and that the best person for the position is hired.

I am pleased to say that my husband is making some progress at home. Sunday he finished the laundry that I had started, which was nice of him. He also did it without me asking for his help! Alhamdulillah! I was very pleased that he showed initiative and pitched in without me having to ask for help. No decision has been made yet, but I am very glad that he's making an effort. Now if only his dad would do the same...

I wanted to ask all of you a question though, especially any of you who may be reverts. The next day after performing salat, my legs ache as if I'd done squats in the gym! I know I'm out of shape (isn't "round" a shape after all?) but I didn't expect my thighs to ache so terribly the day after. How long will it be before that aching goes away? I know the more I can perform salat the easier it will be, but that muscle aching isn't pleasant at all! Talking to a friend on the phone today, I learned that I'm not the only person who has experienced this aching in my legs the day after. It makes praying difficult the next day.

I am going to wear my new dress to work tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. Eventually insha'Allah I will have the courage to wear hijab to work. The dress is this one: Almudena Maxi Dress in the Dark Slate color. It's extremely comfortable and I really like it! It does need to be ironed though so I will have to do that tonight.

I want to start sharing more information about Islam with my husband. Can anyone recommend some easy topics that I can research and share with him that won't overwhelm him or cause him more worry about my reversion? Your input is most appreciated!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Happy Weekend!

I am so excited that the weekend is here! Alhamdulillah! Today is going to be a busy day. I have some housework that needs to be done here and then my daughter and I are going to my mom's to help her shave her cat's matted stomach and then give the kitty a bath. It should be an interesting time. I am going to give her a call and ask if I can bring my oldest cat and do the same with him. He's got some nasty knots on his backside and won't let me groom them out. (He will bite the fool out of you if you come near him with a brush or comb.) So Dragon and Katie are going to get shaved and bathed at my mom's today if I can do both.

Yesterday the dress and hijab I ordered online came in! I love them! My husband hates them. He says he doesn't want me to ever wear hijab and says the dress is too long. Most of my skirts and dresses are ankle length and this one comes to the top of my feet and he complains that's too long? It also has long sleeves and most of my tops have long sleeves as well so what's wrong with this one? Is it the fact that I ordered it from an Islamic website? I don't get it. Still, I like it and I am keeping it. I plan to wear this outfit to Muslim Day this year at the beginning of October insha'Allah!

I am almost over my nasty cold. I still have a bit of a cough but most of the sinus drainage and stopped up nose have cleared up. If I can kick this cough I'll be back to normal.

I've been struggling lately to get in all five prayers. Most days I just get in 2-3, and doing them at the prescribed time isn't always easy. I don't often wake up early enough to pray Fajr before dawn. Dhuhr takes place when I am at work so I usually make that one up when I pray Asr. Asr takes place on my ride home. Sometimes I will pull over at my mom's house (which is on the way) and pray there but not always. And Maghrib and Isha tend to get skipped because I still haven't prayed with anyone else in the house. I have no doubt it would be easier if I lived in a home where others understood the importance of the daily prayers. I know it will come in time and insha'Allah all aspects of Islam will get easier as time goes by. Still, I am impatient and want it all now. Patience....

On a side note, one of my co-workers put in her 2 week notice last week because she got another job. I applied yesterday to fill her soon-to-be vacant position. I'm torn a bit on whether or not I really want this position. Honestly, my whole department is haram. I work in Credit. Currently I am a Credit Clerk. She was a Credit Analyst, which would be a promotion and a raise for me if I am selected to fill her spot. On a positive note, she works Sunday-Thursday and is off on Friday and Saturday. If I had every Friday off...I could actually go to a masjid for Jummah! The idea of that excites me! I am making dua that I will be selected to fill her spot. The raise would help my family and having Fridays off would give me time to further explore my faith. Please make dua that Allah's will shall prevail for me in this situation.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Ick

I'm sick. Bleh. Not fun. My sinuses are driving me batty and I have a horrible sore throat. It's not fun. Today was really tough at work. It was very hard to keep driving on through the day but I really didn't have a choice.

My husband, much to my surprise, has been making an effort to do more around the house over this past weekend. He finished the laundry that I started on Sunday and even put it away. I was surprised and pleased. Yet the pessimist in me wonders how much longer he's going to help out around the house. We'll see how things go. For the rest of the week he's going to be working double shifts though as his district manager is coming for the all important visit on Friday. I really hope he is able to get everything accomplished before his DM gets there. Otherwise, I truly do fear the consequences.

Today at work I turned an app on my cell phone and listened to recitation of the first 185 verses of surah 2 in the Quran. It was nice to hear even if I don't speak enough Arabic to understand what's being said without reading along. Listening to the recitation calms me down if I get frazzled and helps me to focus. I enjoy it.

I know it's just barely 9:00PM but I am going to go to bed. I am exhausted and need to get some rest. Being sick is no fun. I hope my co-workers don't catch it from me! I'll just hide out in my cubicle at work and try not to breathe on anyone. May Allah heal me from my cold and sinus issues.

Also folks, please make dua for a friend of mine who had eye surgery today. May Allah heal my friend and bring good vision back to him. Ameen.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Muslim Talk

Salam everyone! After chatting with some friends on Facebook I have started a forum. The name of the forum is Muslim Talk and it's a safe haven for Muslims and like minded people to come and chat and learn together without having to worry about extremism or Islamophobia. Insha'Allah this will be a wonderful place for people to hang out online that will be safe and positive for everyone! There is one area of the forum that is reserved for debate and more heated discussion. If you're not into things like that, just avoid The Arena. But I invite you all to please come, join, and take part in the chat and discussions!

Muslim Talk